Lonely numbers

Each inseparable friend

Has now uprooted

Causing me to feel a chasm

Uneasy in my loneliness

I never spoke up much anyway

I listen more than share

I create too much concern

When discussing my morbid loss

Sessions with me are one sided

I withhold inner truths

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Exhaustion

I never realized how tired I was

Until my eyes began to burn

And ache with sheer urge

To close squeeze lashes

Soften tears sclera bathed

Hushed memories hushed mind

Sleep at last.

THouser. 2/9/19

Eggshell

If my shell splinters or crackles

Spiderwebs into tiny minuscule pieces

Any further

My contents will emerge

Splatter melt tumble aloft

The rubble that’s left

Memories of me scattered onto the floor

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He’s going to fire me soon

hands shake

Anxiety envelopes

Tears drop

Eyelashes wet

Nose drips

Tissues crumble

Bowed at desk

Booming voice

Boss screams

Hyperventilating

Hiding in the screens

Please stop crying

He will see

Why am I so weak?

I just asked a question

Please stop crying

Please

Please

I can’t breathe

I need this job

Thouser

Copyright 12/18/2018

Should have known better

It was a facade.

Should have known in all actuality.

That no real beauty exist there.

It felt nice though.

To feel wanted for a moment.

I gave him my number.

First time I’ve done that in years.

Felt the confidence.

He never called.

I was proud for a moment.

Until I realized he was flirting for a tip.

Thouser

12/17/18

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